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I'm really sad and scared today. When I saw Aimée in the Dreamlands, she was grouchy because her humans gave her medicine and hooked up a big bag of WATER to her, and when I asked Shoe-auncle about it, he said it's because her kidneys don't work right any more. That happens to housecats when they get old, and it usually means that they don't have very long left to live. That why I'm sad. Nobody knows how long she has left, which is why I'm scared. Every time I go to sleep, it might be too late to ever see her again. We're all scared and sad.
I read in Number-dad's journal about how he had a dream that Aimée died, and all the meerbots sat in circles around her grave and were so sad they turned themselves off and never turned on again. He told the meerbot in charge of remembering that they shouldn't do that and should find someone else to take are of them, but I was really worried so I went to the Memorybot. It looks a little bit like a PYRAMID and a little bit like an ELEPHANT because Aimée heard those are good for keeping things for a long time and remembering them. It says it remembers what Number-dad told it, and anyway the meerbots have been making plans since Aimée started complaining about having to eat different food and they asked Shoe-auncle about it. They think Simoun will be a good mom for them when she's grown up and they have lots of friends to help take care of them until then.
I'm still really sad and scared about Aimée, but I'm not so worried about the meerbots now.
Spin was busy with FAMILY STUFF, so Dmitri and I went to play with just Jean and Blond Dmitry. It was really nice! We took the bus to a forest where they go a lot and found their friends Mei and Adiya and played hide and pounce with them and some other kids and climbed up the cliff beside the waterfall and played in the pond at the top. The water was really cold but we liked splashing each other. It isn't a real wild forest, but it isn't as neat and townish as a park. It's IN BETWEEN, so it's really good for bigger kids like us to play in. There are some old buildings, but when we tried to go in a BARN that was partway in the side of a hill, some kids were playing PRETEND SNOGS inside and they yelled at us to go away. That was embarrassing, but then Jean pounced on my Dmitri and gave him lots of kisses so we all laughed.
We all sat by the pond and talked about what we want to do when we grow up. Blond Dmitry wants to be a space explorer and go to EVERY PLANET, and he wants to draw manga and he wants to make really fun games for people to play. Jean wants to be a monster hunter and a rock star and play shows on different planets. Mei and Adiya are really nice. Mei wants to be a doctor and go all over helping people, but after we talked about going to planets, she wants to go help people on other planets. Maybe she'll be a doctor on MARS and take care of the bear-grams! Adiya likes animals and wants to take care of them like a vet or a zookeeper, which is really great, but after we talked about planets, they said if we ever find a planet with animals on it, they'd want to go there and learn about those animals. We told both of them about Shoe-auncle and my zoo and Space Train and everything, and they had a whole bunch of WOW. It made me really happy. I tried giving them MONTHLY PASSES to my zoo and we'll see if that works.
Clover came to get us when we were late for dinner, and Adiya and Mei thought she was REALLY COOL because she is. She carried them back, and I carried Blond Dmitry and my Dmitri carried Jean, and we felt really strong and cool.
Shoe-auncle went around the city in the Dreamlands a whole bunch looking at buildings to be a DRAGON CLINIC. I liked the one that used to be a garage for fixing TRUCKS, because dragons and trucks are kind of the SAME SIZE, but Shoe-auncle was worried there might be too much OIL and stuff to clean up. Humboldt said the best one was the warehouse, because it's really big and it already had a CRANE for moving dragons who can't walk. I didn't see the warehouse, because that was the night I dreamed about doing little car RACES with Hebichi and Bina and Spin and Blond Dmitry and Jeanne. Jeanne is the best racer because she's FIERCE. When somebody tries to scare her into not driving somewhere, she drives there anyway! Bina is almost as good because she plays lots of racing GAMES. I'm not very good because I don't want to crash. I need more PRACTICE.
In the Awake World, I played racing games with Sahara and Simoun and Rei and Cara. Rei is really good because they play lots of games like that, but everybody else just plays for fun so it was OK. I'm still not very good, but I like the airplane racing game a lot. I like using the ROCKET BOOSTER so I go really fast for 3 seconds.
All of us kittens were snuggled up taking a nap with VV-gram after dinner, and we had a REALLY GOOD dream. We were in a dark place that was full of salty water and had some booming like waves, like we were in an ocean cave, but it wasn't scary even though it was so dark we couldn't see and there was a really BIG animal there. It didn't seem mean, so we snorfled it and it was a KITTEN, so we all said at the same time, "NIHAO VV-gram's new kitten" and felt smart for figuring it out. Then we made ourselves as big as we could, even if that wasn't very big, and gave that kitten a lot of snuggles and purrs. They haven't been BORN yet, so they don't know about talking or running or doing stuff or anything, but they liked it when we purred to them, and then VV-gram purred to all of us and it was really nice. When we woke up, we gave her a masquillion hugs and kisses and said, "Good job growing a new kitten INSIDE YOUR BODY" and all the grownups laughed.
The next day, I heard from Secret that there are going to be NEW BABIES at her house because 3 new people are moving in and their babies will be done during the summer. She's really excited for new house-cousins, even though her mom told her new babies only nurse and pee and poo and cry. I'm excited too because we can see what new babies are like before the kitten is born.
We're getting a new cat, but we're losing an old one. Aimée is doing lots of things she did before, and some of the grownup cats say that means she knows she's almost done being a cat. She made Number-dad and Shoe-auncle take her up flying in their ornithopter boat, and she really liked being over all the squirrels in the forest, but she said she had more fun when she did it with Jinian, and then she got really sad because she misses her friend. She doesn't know about things like "dead" or "forever", she only knows she misses her friend. That made me cry so we all went to my zoo and sat with CAPYBARAS until we felt better. I wish there was a heaven like in stories, so people could be alive after they died and Aimée could see her friend Jinian again, but I don't think there is. When you're dead, all that's left is MEMORIES of people who knew you and the things you did.
I baked and played volleyball and cheered for soccer and rode around on my bike, but it didn't seem very important.
I dreamed I got lost from my parents and I was in a big flat place with lots of important lines on the floor so it was harder to get away from monsters. It was really scary and I thought I was going to get EATEN, but then Jean ran over the monsters in a CAR. I jumped in and we ran over a bunch more monsters and didn't stop until we got to the parking lot at my zoo! The zoo was closed, but I can always go in, so we went to the petting zoo and sat with BUNNIES until we felt better, because running over monsters is scary even for Jean.
I felt bad because I had to get saved by a kid, not a grownup or even a teenager, but when I told Dmitri, he said it just shows that Jean is the BEST. Maybe he's right. Jean was REALLY COOL when he saved me.
It was a good week in the Awake World with lots of sunshine and friends and swimming and bacon pizza. Spin and Hebichi are doing BIKE RACES where they go over JUMPS and around sharp corners and it's really easy to CRASH. It's exciting but really scary so I just cheer for them. Simoun and Sahara want to try it, but they aren't good enough at bikes so they have to PRACTICE.
VV-gram is getting REALLY ROUND and doesn't like doing tussles or too much magic. She likes swimming, because then her belly FLOATS. Lots of kids like hanging on her and having her be a pirate ship and asking about the new kitten and they're REALLY CUTE.
I baked three pies with different kinds of fruit and the fancy tops were weird but they were all YUMMY. Hebichi said when I grow up I could be a baker, but I don't know if I want to cook for a JOB. I like making food for fun.
It wasn't a good week in the Dreamlands because Aimée is running all over to find all the meerbots she ever made and make sure they're OK. She couldn't remember all of them because there are so many, so Octavio-auncle had to help. He wrote them all down, because he's a good BUSINESS MANAGER, but some of the meerbots weren't where they left them. Sometimes they had to TRACK DOWN a meerbot who went to another person, and sometimes the person SOLD the meerbot and Octavio-auncle had to get a lawyer to say meerbots are PEOPLE and you can't buy them or sell them or stop them from going home. 1 meerbot was almost DEAD because the person who bought it didn't take good care of it and it got all rusty and couldn't do anything. That made Aimée really sad but Octavio-auncle got a truck to carry the meerbot back and Simoun helped her start FIXING it.
I hoped Aimée was running around so much because she felt better, but she was in the Dreamlands all the time, because her BODY isn't strong enough to be awake very much. That made everybody really sad. Simoun is the saddest because she's afraid she won't do a good job being the meerbots' mom when Aimée is gone. She's only 11, that's not old enough to be a mom, but everybody knows that so they'll help her. Dragon-mayor and Super Monkey will help keep the meerbots organized and the pocket foxies will help fix them and EVERYBODY will help love them. I think they'll be OK.
Max and Annabelle don't know that Aimée is dying yet. I'm really worried that their hearts will get broken when they find out. Other cats they knew died, like Aspen and Ghirardelli and Caribou, but they know Aimée more. I hope our parents are good at explaining. All the rest of us know, so we're sad together.
Lots of important cats came to visit Aimée and tell her she's been a really great cat. I got a little bit MAD that they didn't do that before, but really they did, just not all at once. Aimée liked that so much she got a SWELLED HEAD and 3 Orange Socks had to tussle with her. That was really funny. Some of the OPERA cats came to see her and they talked about the Kitten Opera so much they started singing in the middle of the BRAZIL MEAT RESTAURANT! That was funny too, but everybody who was there liked it. Another time Aimée was sitting in the park and too many people said nice things about Honeycat, so she made the music meerbots get to work and had a CONCERT and it was really fun. I was there with Hebichi and Faun and we DANCED UP A STORM. I think it's the last Honeycat concert ever, though, and that's really sad.
Annabelle asked why everybody was being really nice to Aimée so Fairy-mom had to tell her and she got really UPSET and cried and yelled. She thought VV-gram or Dragon-mom could make Aimée not die because they know magic, but nobody knows how to do that. Then Max came to find out what was going on and when she heard, she went to Shriek City and didn't come back until she woke up.
When I woke up, I was really sad and didn't want to go to fighting class or school. Nobody did, because we all love Aimée and don't want her to die and can't do anything about it, but our parents said we had to ANYWAY. We did some INTERNAL PRACTICE, and some meditation, and talked about how death is really bad and how sometimes people have to die anyway. It was really sad but made me feel a little bit better.
We talked about death in magic singing class too. It was really INTERESTING, but really sad too. I don't like this. After class I went to the porch swing and curled up and thought about how everybody has to die someday. Even my parents are going to die. Even I'm going to die. It was really scary to think about, even though everybody in the whole world ever has to think about it. I was glad when Dragon-mom came to get me to help make dinner and I could think about that instead.
When I woke up in the middle of the night, I heard crying and I got really worried so I snuck to see what was going on. Number-dad and Clover-auncle were hiding under the bottom shelf being REALLY SAD. I was busy thinking about how I'm sad about Aimée and how my SIBLINGS are sad, but the grownups have known her for a long time. Number-dad met her when he was my age, and Clover-auncle has known her for her whole life. They must be REALLY sad. I crawled under the shelf with them and hugged them and kissed them and we all cried together for Aimée who isn't going to be a cat for very much longer and we're all going to miss her a lot. It's better to cry with other people because then you can soak up each other's TEARS. We fell asleep crying and dreamed about hugging Aimée a whole bunch. She didn't know why we were sad, but she liked the hugs, so that made us feel a little bit better. She's a really great cat.
All my friends gave me lots of hugs today because they knew I'm really sad. They like Aimée too but it's not the same. The pocket foxies were sad too. I didn't like today.
Last night I went to sleep so I could see Aimée but she's DONE being a cat. Now there's a big tree in the park right by the sushi restaurant she liked, with flowers that are white and grey and light orange like her fur. I sat by that tree and sang with the other cats and meerbots and dragons and foxies and everybody who missed Aimée until everybody was there. Then the meerbots parked in circles around the tree, with the oldest meerbots in the middle and the newest meerbots at the edge, and they turned all their green lights yellow 1 by 1, and then turned all their yellow lights red 1 by 1. Number-dad got really SCARED because it was like his DREAM, but after all the lights were red to show how bad the meerbots felt, they turned some lights yellow and green to show they're OK even though they're sad, and Number-dad fell over and Dragon-mom and Fairy-mom had to cuddle him. The meerbots with arms hugged people and the meerbots without arms bumped into people like the sheepies do and everybody loved them back, because it's their MOM who died.
We had a WAKE, that's a party where everybody talks about how great the dead person was and how much they loved them and all the things they did in their life, and grownups drink a lot of grownup juice and everybody eats a lot of food. Even though it's about somebody who died, it's supposed to be a happy party, which is really HARD. We tried our best and didn't cry too much. There were lots of really good stories about Aimée and maybe the meerbots were like stories that were alive. Super Monkey told the story of how he first met Aimée when she sent meerbots to steal sushi and he had to use his Grape Punch power to stop them and the sushi turned purple. He's going to retire the Grape Punch. I think it's because it reminds him too much of Aimée, but maybe it's because he knows all the meerbots are nice now and won't take sushi without paying. Lots of people told stories about how Aimée made meerbots to help them and listening to Honeycat music made them happier and going to Honeycat concerts helped them find friends and seeing Aimée make robots showed them they can do different things even though they're regular cats. Some people told funny stories like when Aimée tried to buy sushi with origami paper because she thought it was prettier and CRUNKLIER than paper money. She was a really BELOVED cat.
Pierce the pirate cat lives in the same house as Aimée in their Awake World, but in the Dreamlands he's on a pirate expedition with Nelson-captain so he wasn't at the wake. I hope he got to say goodbye to Aimée.
When I woke up, I felt better. I still miss Aimée a lot and my heart is still broken, but I can go to school and classes and throw sticks for Sonny and help Max paint a PLANET. Max and Annabelle feel better too. I think because they're only 6 they're more like cats who aren't people and doesn't think about "forever" as much. We all tried to be extra nice to them anyway.
This week I cried because of Aimée. I did all my regular stuff like school and classes and cooking and eating and hugging my friends and tickling Zora too, but I felt really bad all week.
We did another soggy dream with VV-gram's new kitten. It was a SPICY dream because VV-gram ate CHICKEN LARB SALAD and the spicy molecules soaked in. It was weird, but the new kitten was happy, so maybe they'll like spicy food when they're born. I'm really sad they'll never get to know Aimée.
Hebichi and Spin did exciting bike races and I cheered for them. They didn't win but they did pretty good and some kids said they had the cutest cheerleader so I got embarrassed and PROUD. We all played volleyball, but Spin was on the OTHER TEAM because it was Purpleberry Ice Cream vs Raptor Dance Party! Everybody played really FIERCE, but I jumped WAY UP HIGH and SPIKED the ball so nobody could stop it! Victory: PURPLEBERRY ICE CREAM! We bought the Raptor Dance Party players milkshakes and Spin shared his salty caramel milkshake with me and Hebichi to show we're still friends. It made me really happy so maybe I'm GETTING OVER this week.
After I wrote that, I cried a little bit. Maybe I'm not getting over this week. I read a book that says sometimes people's hearts stay broken for a long time after somebody they love dies. I'm scared if my heart gets better, it will be like forgetting Aimée and if nobody remembers her then there won't be anything left. I know the meerbots are still here to be changes she made in the world, but I'm scared ANYWAY. Feelings are like that sometimes.
It was a SOGGY week for kittens. It was TOO HOT so we went swimming almost every day and we had another dream about floating with the new kitten and we had a dream where we all visited Secret's friend Blossom and played in the river with her and her little brother Sprout and we had a water balloon fight with Ai and Zora and Nico.
It was a LOUD week for kittens. There was a music festival and the Elephant Street Choir sang at it so I had to SING UP A STORM. Then lots of other groups sang and played music and we danced until our paws got sore and we all fell over in a big pile in front of the stage and people had to roll us away. It was really funny. We practiced singing SECRETLY LOUD in magic singing class too. It's really hard!
It was a VICTORIOUS week for kittens. Dmitri and Humboldt played softball and won, and I played volleyball and won, and Sahara and Simoun started doing bike races and got in the top 3!
It was a SAD week for kittens because we still miss Aimée. Simoun misses her the most, and we all had to give her lots of hugs and tell her she could do it when the meerbots needed help. Sometimes she couldn't do it and the pocket foxies had to do it, which made her feel really BAD. I'm worried about her.
Pierce the pirate cat came back from the expedition with Nelson-captain. They did some good piracies so he had lots of money for Octavio-auncle to buy him cat toys and sushi, but the best treasure he brought back was KITTENS. 2 new kittens joined the pirate crew and they're called the MUSHROOM SISTERS because the light one with stripy points is NAMEKO and the black one is TRUFFLE. They live with Pierce in their Awake World too, and they came from a kitten café there. They're really cute and nice and like playing, but you can tell they're PIRATES because they like to catch toys and carry them away. That's even cuter. They like snuggling in a pile and they purr really loud when you pet them and they're REALLY GOOD kittens. I think everybody is going to love them a lot.
Pierce was really DISAPPOINTED that Aimée isn't here any more because he wanted her to meet the Mushroom Sisters. He knew that she got sick and went away in the Awake World, but he hoped she was here in the Dreamlands. He's a regular cat, not a person, so he doesn't know about "dead" and "never", and my heart broke again when he looked all over for Aimée and couldn't find her and now he really MISSES her and doesn't understand. He really likes the tree with Aimée-colored flowers, though, so maybe he KIND OF knows. The Mushroom Sisters don't know about Aimée, but they like everybody who plays with them and pets them and gives them treats. That's all of us but especially Annabelle and Max who like playing the same kitten games.
Super Monkey came to see the Mushroom Sisters because he heard there were new pirate cats in town. He tried to be STERN with them so they wouldn't steal sushi or cause trouble, but they were TOO CUTE and he had to rub their chins and take a picture of how they took a nap where they were each other's PILLOWS. Octavio-auncle said he would take good care of them so Super Monkey isn't worried. I think he's not as fierce as he used to be because Dragon-mayor made the city so much better.
I really like the Mushroom Sisters. I hope we'll be really good FRIENDS.
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