Sage has many questions, but I don’t know what they are!

Had a meeting with our new colleagues in Australia, but we did the lame American thing of just talking about sharks and giant spiders and drop bears. Also I embarrassed myself by forgetting which way the planet rotates.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.17-18: More characters from past arcs make an appearance! Some of them even survive!

Read (novel): Shadow of Mars: Book eighteen, back with the current action heroine on the conquered planet. Action and heroics ensue, mostly unsanctioned.

Written (game design): 202.

Sadly, I had my hat off while eating the bagel, since it was indoors. Also my arm robot complained extensively about the bagel.

Went to the office, ate a bagel, did some work, ate Mayan rice and chicken and veggie and plantain, learned some kubernetes, got embarrassing praise from one of the guys I helped yesterday.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.15-16: Just as things were starting to look less bad for the good guys, the bad guys get a major asset back in play. But, the heroes can also bring back some characters from earlier arcs!

Read (manga): Sachi’s Monstrous Appetite vol 6 (Chomoran): It would be wrong to say the mysteries around Makie’s mother are dispelled, but a plot thread is resolved. Actually, a lot of plot threads are resolved, The End!

Written (game design): 160:

The other difficulty with external complications is that the GM might,
entirely legitimately and without any intent to show favoritism, find
Hunted: Evil Magian Fire Worshippers to be a more interesting
complication than Reputation: Atlantean Spy and have it come up more.
Obviously the GM shouldn’t do that, but multiple characters with
multiple complications can be a lot to keep track of, and who wants to
do the extra bookkeeping to make sure all those complications come up
equally. (I mean, maybe somebody does, but we can’t count on every group
having one.)

(This is a point in favor of complications that give points up front, I
guess. There’s your 15 points for a common, strong psychlim, with no
need for the GM to devote brain cells to it.)

One thing we can do to help with this is give the player more
involvement. Instead of Hunted, it’s Nemesis, and the character can
decide to take action against them. This gives the player more GM power,
though, and not everybody wants to have to come up with their own plots:
they just want to hit villains provided by the GM. The worst failure
mode here is if everyone is not on the same page.

We could keep experience even by having a cycle last until everyone
has maxed out on the XP they have coming, so they all get the same
award. There’s still an incentive for each character to suffer for XP,
but it doesn’t give them an advantage over other characters. Or, along
the same lines, all XP goes into a common pool, which is split evenly
among the PCs at the end of the cycle (leftover points stay in the pool
for next time).

How important is it for XP awards to be the same across the team?
Usually all characters start with the same number of points, and points
allgedly express game balance and that’s important in Hero, but is it
really? If you have to be in the adventure to get XP, then once people
start missing sessions, characters are going to have different point
values. Nobody seems to have a problem with it in Hero, so probably it’s
fine.

Of course it’s possible to give XP to characters even if they weren’t in
an adventure, but that’s moving even more away from getting XP for
specific bad decisions/revolting developments. I really like that, but
obviously it’s not the only way to award XP.

I play like ten word games every day, so hard to deny it me.

Did not go into the office, did get sat on by cats.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.13-14: More fighting in the Sky Coffin, heteromorph riot on the ground.

Read (novel): Cold Eyes (Peter Cawdron): This book annoyed me so much! The entire story hinges on the aliens not being able to get into space because their planet has too high an orbital velocity for chemical rockets and limited uranium, and obviously  what humans knew about in the 1960s is all that’s physically possible. Gaaah! Read a book! Or a journal!

Read (manga): Monthly in the Garden With My Landlord vol 5 (Yodokawa): Landlord resolves her troublesome backstory, HEA, the end!

Written (game design): 191.

I typed in a chair instead, which is definitely not as classy.

Went to the office, did some work, learned some kubernetes, ate some beef stroganoff.

Read (graphic novel): Family Force V vol 1 (Matt Braly, Ainsworth Lin): The somewhat (but not very) delinquent daughter of a family sentai team struggles with life, the alien spaceship that gives the sentai teams their powers, new aliens, etc. There is of course a cliffhanger ending.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.11-12: Meh, surely that guy wasn’t an important character or anything. Certainly not compared to Tintin-Face Lad, who has returned to the fray.

Written (game design): 286.

Hey, I wrote a cats of science fiction that one time! And that other time!

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.9-10: Fights! More fights! Maiming! No murders yet, but it’s coming.

Read (graphic novel): Watersnakes (Tony Sandoval): A girl meets a mysterious girl, they become friends, but when they try to kiss, everything is weird and more mysterious and they have a dream-like adventure. Distinctive art style, extremely peculiar, not actually about kissing.

Read (novel): Fallen lands vol 2: West Peak (C Peinhopf): The kitsune sisters continue the fight the demons started, with an ever-growing band of allies (including a giant beetle) and the odd volcanic eruption here and there. They remain overpowered and mischevious.

Written (game design): 184.

But no, I am happy with my presents!

Forgot today was an official holiday, got up and tried to go to work, then went back to bed and was trapped by cats forever.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.7-8: Still cutting between like four different fight scenes, as the rest of the season probably will continue to do.

Read (comic collection): The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl vol 4 (Ryan North, Erica Henderson, Jacob Chabot, Rico Renzi): Squirrel Girl vs the world of dating! Boys are just the worst, even the ones that aren’t incels.

Read (short): “Amiable Voyager” (Glynn Stewart): Space piracy! In the setting of, and apparently will be a background event in, the “House Adamant” books.

Read (novel): The Tainted Cup (Robert Jackson Bennett): Fantasy(?) mystery, in a world of bioenhancement where the empire exists to deal with the enormous monstrosities that crawl out of the ocean every year. Our viewpoint character, a junior detective enhanced with perfect memory, has been assigned to work with the crazy senior detective who has been augmented so much she can’t deal with most people, or city streets, or really anything except hiding in the dark being creepy and deducing. No orchids, though. Anyway, murder and more murder and giant monstrosities and skullduggery and dark history and mysterious biotech, it’s great.

Written (game design): 123:

Time for review! What goes on a character sheet?

Every character has a rating in all of Strength, Presence, Ego, and
Constitution. These are 1d6 per rank, with a base of 2 ranks and a
normal characteristic max of 4d6.

Every character also has Defense (base 0 ranks, NCM 2 ranks),
Resilience (base 2 ranks, NCM 6), and Body (base 6, NCM 12), which all
give 1 point of the characteristic per rank. Recovery gives 2 Rec per
rank, base 1 rank and NCM 3 ranks.

The default for Running is 1 zone as a full move, or somewhere else in
your current zone as a half move. Swimming would be the level below
that: move arond in your zone as a full move, take two full moves to get
to the next hex, and ??? as a half move. This definitely needs more
work.

Not sure what to do with Leaping. Possibly the default is 0 ranks of
Leaping power and you have to fake it by throwing your (awkward,
unaerodynamic) self at the destination with your own Strength? If you
buy any ranks of Leaping, that’s how far you can leap without having to
make a roll. As with Swimming, normal human values are going to be less
than one zone. Do we end up mixing zones and meters? Ew.

DCV and DMCV are sort of like skills, or at least they affect enemy
skill rolls, and are like defensive combat skill levels in 6E. But,
defensive (and other) combat levels in 6E can be specialized to ranged
or melee or some other specific subset of combat, which means a
limitation, and how does that work here? Each limited tranche of DCV
would have to be a separate power, with a separate minimum cost. Then
there’s no point in buying only +1 DCV against thrown knives or
whatever, since the cost after all limitations might as well be the
minimum cost. This has the effect we said we wanted, so now we have to
decide if it’s what we really want.

Converting from 6E to chonky points, each +1 of DCV would cost 2pts.
Even if we are trying to avoid futzing around with the equivalent of
-1/4 limitations, making something work only half the time is probably
worth at least two standard ranks of limitation, so 4 points. The
minimum cost for a power is probably one standard rank, so 2 points,
which means spending 2 points on DCV only against ranged attacks gets +3
DCV. Every additional 2 points is only another +1, since we obviously
don’t allow buying multiple instances of the exact same power with the
exact same limitations. So instead the obnoxious player buys DCV only
against fast-moving ranged attacks and DCV only against thrown objects,
which are each probably 2 points for +4 specialized DCV. That’s a total
of +7 DCV against ranged attacks for 6 points, which is close to half
the cost of all-purpose DCV. Buying +7 DCV without that cheese costs
10pts, so there is a definite cheeseward incentive. Bah.

Note that I’m assuming in all this that DCV that only protects against
half of attacks should cost half as much, which is obviously the Hero
paradigm, but really hard to argue with in such a simple case as this.
I’m not sure what alternative would seem as intuitively correct,
especially to players already familiar with Hero. Are we back to that
first idea where powers are bought in ranks that cost whatever based on
power and/or advantages, but limitations are applied to the total of the
final cost?

(Another asymmetry between limitations and advantages: there are times
when it’s easy to say a limitation is making a power half as useful, but
it’s hard to have an advantage that makes it twice as useful, unless you
count buying twice as many dice of attack as an advantage. Which gets us
back to buying ranks of range or whatever.)

I presume they mean people who never manage to accomplish things.

Why do I have weird chest tightness? It doesn’t seem like a heart attack or anything, just weird and annoying, especially when I bend over. I do not approve.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.3-4: Finally, that plot thread from a million seasons ago is explained! Also, more about Navel Laser Boy’s backstory, which is surprisingly relevant to the current disaster.

Read (collection): The Gorgon Incident and Other Stories (John Bierce): Short stories in the world of the “Mage Errant” series, decades or centuries before the main series. We get to see a lot more mages and their weird affinities and how they use them cleverly to gain vast power, so good source material for Kaiju Academy.

Read (manga): MADK vol 1 (Ryo Suzuri): A teenager with extremely depraved fetishes summons an Archduke of Hell to satisfy him, because it would not be okay to do those things to a human. One thing leads to another and he ends up in Hell as a pet/apprentice of the archduke. Despite the violence and depravity of demons, it’s actually kind of wholesome, because the main character’s personal journey is learning is to stand up for himself and his honest (if horrible) desires.

Written (game design): 154.

Also Ambrosia Day, which fits since it’s forbidden to mortals.

Almost kind of did some work, mostly kind of bleah.

Watched (anime): My Hero Academia 7.1-2: Starting off with a bang, but it’s looking pretty bad for the good guys. I feel like Star and Stripe should have done better with that quirk, but she did pretty well.

Read (manga): FAIL.

Written (game design): 144.

Yay, no commuting! Lots of customers, but whatever. I did at least as much work as I would have in the office, so bite me, capitalists.

Also I can have cleaners in when I’m not at the office, so my apartment is slightly less squalid.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.24-25: Uraraka finally got to do something, even if it was only make a speech, and now the team is back together. Apparently the next season will consist of a single scene that takes 25 episodes.

Watched: RWBY 9.1: Well, that’s better than what it looked like was going to happen at the end of season 8. Maybe. Also, brightly colored!

Read: Zero Hour (Craig Alanson): Even more shenanigans, but Skippy’s quest has advanced by one milestone. Also everybody is even more doomed than they were before they tried to fix things.

Read: Trouble on Paradise (Craig Alanson): Side characters from book three get into extra trouble, but the explosions don’t damage human-alien relations. Much.

Written: FAIL.

No office today, so I was able to handle my part of the zillion customer cases that came in without unnecessary discomfort and humanity. Spent a while setting up an important tool because the automatic copy from the old laptop didn’t happen, but I think overall it was better to set up the current version fresh.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.21-23: Well, that villain didn’t last very long. Deku is becoming totally OP by the expected method of abandoning all self-care, but All Might is still not to be fucked with. Two episodes left in the season!

Read: “Salt Water” (Eugenia Triantafyllou): Kind of like “Ponies” but mermaids and fish and not darkest horror.

Read “Fitting In” (Max Gladstone): “Wild Cards” universe, a former reality-TV superhero and other Jokers protect a local institution from goons.

Written: FAIL.

At least I didn’t have to commute today, but where did my month go? Where did my quarter go? What is wrong with my life? Why do I only have one sister to come watch anime with me?

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.18-20: One of the downsides of making heroes an idealized class, or alternately, of entrusting society to “them” instead of “us”.

Read: You Sexy Thing (Cat Rambo): Soldiers who retired to run a restaurant get pulled into interstellar intrigue and piracy, with a living ship. For no apparent reason, there’s magic as well as high tech. Not like there needs to be a reason, I guess.

Written: FAIL.

Was I smart today? Only vaguely, I think. Mostly I read Nebula nominees, and probably didn’t appreciate them enough.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.16-17: Backstory for Hawks, additional backstory for the Todorokis. I understand that regulating parenthood would be nothing but wall-to-wall abuse, but some people really should not be allowed to reproduce.

Read: Wild Massive (Scotto Moore): Artificial multiverse, colonization/assimilation, genocide, theme parks, revenge, sufficiently-advanced sorcery, unethical experimentation, higher powers, sufficiently-advanced technology, mayhem, shenanigans, narrative warfare, and no romance. It was a pretty wild ride.

Read: “If You Find Yourself Speaking to God, Address God with the Informal You” (John Chu): An actor meets basically-Superman in his secret ID at the gym. Slice of life.

Read: “Two Hands, Wrapped in Gold” (SB Divya): I figured out which fairytale this was as soon as we saw the MC’s full name, but I don’t think it was supposed to be a puzzle, just less Eurocentric.

Read: “The Prince of Salt and the Ocean’s Bargain” (Natalia Theodoridou): Original fairytale with a  modern sensibility.

Read: “Rabbit Test” (Samantha Mills): I really hope Christian fuckfaces aren’t still going to be denying women reproductive freedom in a hundred years…

Read: “Your Eyes, My Beacon: Being an Account of Several Misadventures and How I Found My Way Home” (CL Clark): Kind of Beauty and the Beast, but sapphic and there’s a lighthouse and it’s different.

Read: “The Calcified Heart of Saint Ignace Battiste” (Christopher Caldwell): Young priest spies on a spooky ritual in Spookytown and learns that the orthodoxy is a lie.

Read: “The Goldfish Man” (Maureen McHugh): Homeless lady has a hard life for a while and then meets a strange person on the streets.

Read: “Ribbons” (Natalia Theodoridou): Another modernish fairytale, in a world where fairytale things happen. Not sure what the ribbon is a metaphor for — there’s already plenty of queerness.

Read: “This Village” (Eugenia Triantafyllou): Welcome to Wicked Witch Town.

Read: “The Coward Who Stole God’s Name” (John Wiswell): The most beloved man in the world reveals his true self to a reporter. Chaos almost doesn’t ensue. Read to me like a direct commentary on celebrity/billionaire adulation.

Written: FAIL.

Somehow made it to Friday, but I must be doing something wrong. I’m pretty sure a very mild workweek like mine should not lead to such bleargh. I barely had enough energy to eat Chinese food and watch anime with Marith.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.13-15: Well, that was inconclusive, except for all the people who died. Setbacks are par for the course in shonen, though.

Written: 148.

It may have been a three-day work-week for me, but somehow being sick is not like an actual long weekend, so I am perfectly happy with it being Friday.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.10-12: Dabi’s big reveal! Immediately undercut, but still, fuck that guy.

Read: Katalepsis ch 19.1-14 (Hungry): Oh no, I’m caught up!

Read: Past the Redline (RavensDagger): A spaceship racer from Earth is flung across the galaxy by a mysterious technobabble accident and runs roughshod over all the aliens there by virtue of advanced technology and a massive suit of plot armor. Many poorly-justified murders ensue.

Written: FAIL with FAIL sauce and a light dusting of FAIL.

The meeting I have to have facts for is cancelled, so I can save my facts for later.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.7-6.9: Well, this is going about as well as one might fear. But Aizawa is METAL AS FUCK.

Read: Katalepsis ch 10.1-10 (Hungry): Wow, that guy is obnoxious.

Written: Eternal FAIL. Unless you count recreating D&D character sheets, which I wouldn’t. Maybe creating them the first time.

Managed to get up and look in Marith’s car for my phone and go grocery shopping with my phone, somehow. Then I wobbled around all day until Marith came over for anime and Chinese food.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.5-6: The fight continues, although it’s moved into a new phase now that the villains have way more damage output.

Read: Colorless vol 1 (KENT): Mysterious solar flare mutated everybody and blasted almost all color from the world, now the mutants are fighting over what color remains and how to use it to rule the world or not. The blurb calls it noir, but it’s really more like Batman.

Read: Namekawa-san Won’t Take a Licking vol 1 (Rie Ato): The title sounds like it could be yuri smut, but really it’s just nonconsensual sliminess. Boo.

Read: Vigor Mortis ch 175-181 (Thundamoo): Now I am caught up. Allegedly there are only twenty or so chapters remaining, which seems plausible. I think the endpoint is probably continental domination.

Read: The Agartha Loop ch 1-35 (RavensDagger): Magical girls with military backup, monsters, parallel universes, time travel, gay romance, and of course time loops. Chapter 35 is where it comes back around to the beginning, so I figured that was a good stopping place for tonight.

Written: FAIL and more FAIL.

 

Spent almost the entire day and then some on a customer call. I hear they got things working after I left.

Marith came over to watch anime and eat Cheese Disk, which used up all the rest of my brain.

Watched: My Hero Academia 6.3-4: Yep, this fight (to be fair, it’s on two fronts so far and may expand) is going to take up the whole season, isn’t it?

Read: The Drowned Lands (Benjamin Sperduto): Adventure in the doomed post-apocalyptic age between Cthulhu destroying civilization and reshaping the Earth’s surface and him actually waking up. Cultists and rain everywhere, magical artifacts, theocracy, inevitable doom.

Read: The Atlas of the Latter Earth (Kevin Crawford): The default setting for Worlds Without Number, in a fair amount of detail. It seems like too much detail to me, but it’s not like I don’t know the urge to keep creating, and many of the bits are pretty good. Also it’s for OSR, so I guess detail is expected?

Read: The Path of Duty (Eric Thomson): Second in a missiles-in-space series with very old-fashioned space navy and unending corruption which is the real enemy. It’s clear the invading aliens would not be a problem if humanity could get anything together to fight them instead of treating the entire war as a profiteering opportunity.

Written: FAIL.

Pocket frond got me a good fact about the horrors of the deep to use in the fortnightly meeting (dolphins use pufferfish to get high). I had some more facts, which I have now forgotten so I better find them and write them down.

Marith somehow did not murder her entire management chain, so she was not in jail and could come over to eat Cheese Disk and watch anime.

Watched: My Hero Academia smiling graffiti artist and then the first two episodes of season six. Marith complained a lot about their bad tactics, which was mostly pretty legit, although I think in many cases there were reasons for doing it the way they did (like, not being actual military).

Read: Bioshifter ch 16-33 (Thundamoo): More mutation and murder and trauma and bad religion and secrets and cute girls and trauma. This is as much as has been posted on Royal Road, so I was able to stop reading and die in a pit for now.

Written: FAIL. I just really kind of suck at this whole “writing” thing.

It was not, in fact, okay that I stayed up until 2:00. But if I have to completely waste a day, at least this is a good day for it.

In the evening, Marith came over and we (re)watched the last episode of My Hero Academia S5, and the ridiculous baseball OVA, and ate some balsamic chicken stuff. It was like human contact, at least more so than playing Slay the Spire for 873 hours in a row.

Written: 328 words.

 

Monday after a long weekend and I really didn’t wanna, but I had to anyway, so I kinda did. I managed to claim some days during the holidays as vacation, although on other days I have to work or at least be on call.

Eaten: Sheet pan chicken with pancetta, garlic, and tomatoes.

Watched: My Hero Academia 110-113: Sometimes, when you have two problems, they don’t cancel each other out.

Watched: RWBY Fairy Tails 4-5: The one about the princess in the tower, and the one about the wise king.

Read: I Think I Love You (Auriane Desombre): More high school F/F romance, with Cunning Plans and Rival Movies and Conflicting Views Of Romance and Coming Out and also boys who suck.

NaNoWriMo Words: 26832 + 742 = 27574. It turns out socializing and writing don’t work together well. Also feelings are still stupid and hard.

Yay, we made it to Friday. I wish I had some brain left.

Watched: RWBY Fairy Tales 1: Don’t got into the forest, geez!

Watched: My Hero Academia 107-109: Some disturbing information about the Nomus, then back to the League of Villains, who haven’t been idle all this time!

Read: Apocalypse: Generic System and Apocalypse: Fairy System (Macronomicon): Isekai/litrpg with magic crafting and subterfuge, then getting screwed over and having to survive in the post-assimilation world, with some delving into the deeper mechanics underneath what is presented to mortals as classes and levels and stats. Also fairy bargains, mad science, and video games. I stayed up until forever o’clock reading, so I guess they’re engaging, at least at the level my brain can handle.

NaNoWriMo Words: 153 words, which is pretty much a FAIL. Marith thinks writing even a single word during the month of November qualifies for winning NaNoWriMo, but I’m a purist. Or maybe just grumpy. 3635 + 153 = 3788 total.

The customers attacked in great profusion, but only one of them demanded a call.

Eaten: Chinese food to celebrate Marith’s birthday!

Watched: My Hero Academia 103-106: One swimsuit episode, some intrigue plot, some Endeavor family plot, some work-study. Fuyumi got so many sparkles when she appeared, I was sure Deku or Bakugo was going to have a crush on her, but apparently not.

Read: Hani and Ishu’s Guide to Fake Dating (Adiba Jaigirdar): Bengali-Irish high school lesbians, fake dating, horrible white girls, racist administrators, the freedom of completely disappointing one’s parents, almost no boys because who even needs them.

Read: The Case Study of Vanitas vol 5 (Jun Mochizuki): Any French supernatural murders must involve the Beast of Gévaudan! Also it looks like the Jeanne-Vanitas thing is really a thing, not throw-away.

Words: Check.

Today’s major lifestyle change: added a different kind of packaged protein to my packaged salad lunch. Not a better kind, at least not environmentally, just different.

Read: Sunreach (Brandon Sanderson, Janci Patterson): Novella between the second and (upcoming) third books of the “Skyward” space opera series, following other characters as they try to make progress on their problems while the main character is off doing the thing.

Watched: My Hero Academia 99-102: End of the class A vs class B competition, on to next round of internships!

Words: Check

Now it’s Friday again and I haven’t accomplished anything all week. I mean, I did some capitalisms, and sustained my pointless life, but whatever.

Read: Shatter the Sky (Rebecca Kim Wells): Recommended in the acknowledgments of Iron Widow. A girl from the mountain that dragons used to come from has her girlfriend stolen by the Bureau of Creepiness from the empire that stole all the dragons and makes a terrible plan to get her back. Dragons and ghosts and perfumery are also involved, but not much questioning of the social order. Much more standard YA than Iron Widow.

Watched: My Hero Academia 95-98: Mostly shōnen combat, but we did get some One for All plot. Also Bakugo was somehow not 100% awful

Words: FAIL. I have no excuse, I’m just very dumb.

Read: Kingdoms at War (Lindsay Buroker): Start of a fantasy series where mages rule everything and treat the non-magical about as well as Africans during the age of empires. Non-magical archaeologists uncover something that everybody wants, even before they find out what it really does and the dangers thereof. Intrigue and adventure ensue. Also like four romance subplots, but they all seem to pretty slow-burn.

Watched: My Hero Academia 90-94: We got one episode of Endeavor trying to redeem himself to his family and Hawks plotting, but then it was back to UA and class 1A vs class 1B in not-entirely-lethal combat so everybody can show off their new techniques.

Words: Continued FAIL. Apparently my brain has to be useless for a certain number of hours every day, even though those hours could be used for writing.

Apparently I forgot how to sleep again, but fortunately there was not a lot that needed to happen at work today.

Eaten: Creamy lemon dill chicken, zucchini, and snap peas.

Watched: My Hero Academia 87-89: Last two of S4 and then the first one of S5, a lot of which was recap anyway. Can Endeavor really be redeemed, though?

Read: Pahua and the Soul Stealer (Lori M Lee): Another from the “Rick Riordan Presents” line of middle-grade fantasy in non-white-people mythoi. This one is Hmong, about which I knew nothing going in, but was not surprised to find it similar to other E/SE Asian cultures.

Read: Amelia O’Donohue is So Not a Virgin (Helen Fitzgerald): Scottish all-girls boarding school drama. I saw the big plot twist ahead of time, although perhaps not at the very first clue.

Read: Lycanthropy and Other Chronic Diseases (Kristen O’Neal): It is in fact about both those things, and also Internet support groups and friendship and love and family and life goals.

Words: FAIL. I am not smart enough to write.